Sex Work

I’m Proud to be a Gay Porn Star

This week I read an article out of HuffPost Gay Voices that I really liked. The article is titled “How Gay Porn Helped Build the Gay Rights Movement,” authored by Mike Stabile, journalist and director of the upcoming film Seed Money: The Chuck Holmes Story. The article praises early pornographers’ financial and legal contributions to the gay rights movement, as well as their production of gay erotica that served as a beacon of hope for gay men across the country. This article strongly resonates with me because of my reasons for getting into porn. Being a gay porn star isn’t just a job. Being a gay porn star represents sexual freedom. Personally, I take pride in my work, as a performer and as a symbol.

I decided to get into porn more or less on an adventurous whim. I had just finished up my last final exam of my degree when my friend, Brandon Wilde, a veteran porn star himself, called to inform me he had sent my contact info and some of my photos to Randy Blue, the first studio for which I would ever work. I had met Brandon during a trip to Dallas, Texas before I moved there when he was doing a club appearance at one of the local gay bars. I was somewhat in disbelief at first when he told me about the submission to Randy Blue, but sure enough Randy Blue reached out to me. A few weeks later I was on my way to Los Angeles to film my first scene for the company. Two and a half years later, I was signing an exclusive contract with Falcon Studios Group. This summer I will have been in the industry for four years.

One could say I was a bit naïve when I got into the porn industry, though. I assumed the gay community would be nothing less than united and enthusiastic about this kind of sexual adventurism. After all, here we are as sexual minorities fighting for rights and acceptance within a heteronormative society. Despite this fact, we have members of the gay community, for example, trying to define sex and marriage in their own way, criticizing those who don’t conform to their model of a relationship or align with their own views about sex.

While I would argue society has become more liberal about sexuality since the gay rights movement began, I believe the gay community itself is divided. On the one hand, we have members of our community trying to appease the puritans of mainstream society and conform to heteronormativity and appear “normal”. On the other hand, we have members of our community, such as myself, who seek sexual liberation. The former attempt to distance themselves from and ostracize the latter.

It’s a shame Stabile has faced so much opposition from our community in his efforts to create Seed Money. The contributions of Chuck Holmes and other gay pornographers helped pave the way for the gay rights movement. Chuck Holmes was the founder of Falcon Entertainment, now Falcon Studios Group, and it is an honor to be an exclusive with the company. I have a direct connection to a very important part of gay history, a part of history some members of our community try to downplay. They concede to the moral fascists of hetero mainstream, unable to accept the fact that we truly are different; and it’s okay to be different. Whether obsessed or not with sex, we shouldn’t apologize for it.

The gay rights movement is fundamentally about sexuality. We, the LGBT community, are sexual deviants. There isn’t a more perfect depiction of our sexuality than the very act of two men or two women fucking each other senseless, no greater display of gay pride than gay porn. Gay pornographic actors are symbols—gay sex symbols—representing our sexuality in its crudest form. As Stabile said in his Huffington Post piece, “We might scoff at porn theaters now, but looking up at that screen, a closeted man could see promise of gay life that was open and positive, with larger-than-life men who were bold and unashamed in ways he might only aspire to be.”

Getting past the surface, doing porn actually means something to me. I take pride in doing pornography because it’s gay pornography. I am a gay male in a patriarchal, misogynistic, homophobic, heteronomative society. I grew up in the Bible Belt of the United States. It’s likely few things defy that more than an atheist, biracial male of black and white ethnicity expressing his gay sexuality on film for all the world to see.

29 comments

  1. ine if the things that I especially like about Sean, besides
    His obvious stunning looks and killer body, is his mind! And his
    Eloquent and intelligent way of expressing it so! Now,
    That is sexy, to boot!! Thanks Sean! Dallas misses u!!!

  2. Hi sweetie, just wanted to say this was a very well written. Its always interesting to see what made someone go into porn and what it means to them to be doing it. So many people think its because the person cant do anything else and will do anything for money. And i dont believe that. As you said a closeted gay man will see promise of a gay life. And lets face it we all enjoy watching it and you really like what you do. Your articles are so infomative and on point. I am enjoying reading your blog:) lots of love sweetie.

  3. J.J. I have to say that what I love about you most is that you’re not the A-typical porn star, you put an intellectual spin on porn that to me takes it to a whole other level. After reading both yours and Mike Stabile pieces it hit me that politically as the gay community becomes more & more heteronomative we’ve become less & less educated about gay history, the HIV/AIDS epidemic, and racism within our own community. It’s ironic that as the quote unquote powers that be in the gay activist community want to push gay porn deeper and deeper into the shadows it’s become one of the most profitable businesses for gay people. I find your statement “I grew up in the Bible Belt of the United States. It’s likely few things defy that more than an atheist, biracial male of black and white ethnicity plowing and getting plowed by other males and deep-throating their cock for all the world to see.” to be a very radical and refreshing statement because you own everything about you meaning no one can say anything about you or have power over you for not fitting into their definition of normal.

  4. Pornography is like any other form of art or entertainment. There’s good and bad, both in quality and in its impact on viewers. A star who is good at what he does and who is respectful of his co-workers should be proud of his work. I am grateful that men like you share your beautiful bodies and sexuality with me, and heartened to read your blog. Almost every night, I thank God in my prayers for you and your fellow adult entertainers. Keep up the good work and have a good, meaningful, and productive life.

  5. Wow,

    this post is officially going into my ‘learn something new everyday ‘ file. I had no idea the history behind gay porn and the LGBT movement. Thank you for sharing. Im glad that you have found your way to give back to the community (by being that ultimate symbol for sexual freedom). I’m still on my journey to find a fulfilling way to give back to this wonderfully diverse community that has so far accepted me… maybe one day (hopefully soon) I’ll find it.

  6. You’re amazing, brutha, and this is a wonderful opinion piece.

    Stay smart, take care of yourself, do your thing, and keep sharing your beauty and brilliance with the world.

  7. Interesting readind! I thought such difficulties mentioned in the article happened only where I live. People live in different countries, but life problems are alike everywhere.

  8. You can say anyway you like to make you feel beter, but being a porn star or even an escort mean you have inner issues that you have not faced yet. Also it means you have sexual addiction and can never be satisfied. Seek the necessary help there are other way of making a few bucks sleaze.

    1. Honey, if you have so little respect for Josiah and what he does, stop chasing him. No one is telling you that you have to like porn or accept it or anything, so no need to come across as a bitter queen out to make judgmental comments about people she disagrees with. I think his attitude and ideas are fine and you’re the one who needs help in loosening your self-imposed chastity-belt, because it’s obvious from your comment you don’t want to believe a word of what you say.

  9. no one’s going to stop you not even God if that’s what you want to do you have the right to do that but just because you do something you feel is right does not mean there are consequences I hope and pray sad the Holy Spirit touches you and shows you the wrong in your ways I sure hate to see anybody go to hell and yes it does exist

    1. Eric, you’re being judgmental, but you read this blog and perhaps watch the videos. All of us are imperfect, and that’s what makes us men. Who among us does what “God wants” anyhow? We can’t base God’s will entirely on sexual mores written for the bronze age. Josh and his peers could be exactly where God wants them doing what he wants. And if hell exists, it’s a living hell on earth as we make ourselves and others miserable … just like “respectable” people try to do to Josh and his peers. Watch the movie “House of Boys” on Netflix and you may see that the two protagonists are Christ to each other in the sense of Matthew 25. Was it Saint Augustine who said, “Love God and do what you like?” So let’s treat each other with respect and put the best construction possible on what others do.

  10. I love the connections to the gay community and think pornstars are our heros, just wish they all were really gay and not straight guys faking it. It’s an insult to gay pride.

  11. To noitall & Eric people my question to the both of you is J.J. aka “Sean” is a sex addict with deep issues who needs to find find Jesus then why do you follow his blog? Both your comments come off as if you’re projecting your issues on to him. Being a porn actor does not equate to having sexual addiction issues or that one is going to hell. I’m taking it that for those points you both state to be true you both know from personal experience having been a sex addict in search of the Holy Spirit, do you have any idea what sex addiction is noitall & Eric people I hope the Holy Spirit touches you to remove that judgmental attitude you have towards Sean, it’s very unchristian like and something Jesus does not condone.

  12. Josiah Jennings, you’re brilliant! So glad I came across your blog. Your line, “It’s likely few things defy that more than an atheist, biracial male of black and white ethnicity plowing and getting plowed by other males and deep-throating their cock for all the world to see.” — What a clarion call to be who we are and live out our lives with confidence and joy. Much admiration.

  13. I really enjoyed your post ;-) Before starting Cybersocket I was a gay porn performer. It was my way of breaking out of my “good mormon boy” background. The last 19 years of my life since making that decision have been an incredible adventure. In part, I continue to do what I do in the Industry because it is subversive. But also because I know this is right where I am supposed to be. This industry is filled with some of the best, kindest, most generous, and inspired people I have ever met. Have a great day mister!

  14. Great commentary, Josiah. Here’s something along the same lines from Connor Habib —

    https://connerhabib.wordpress.com/2015/06/24/theyre-not-here-to-help-how-anti-sex-work-activists-use-the-tactics-of-homophobes-racists-and-islamophobes/

    I don’t care which side of the fence someone is — left-or-right-wing, religious or atheist, gay or straight, male or female — when they try to force others to live by their idea of what is right and wrong, they’re nothing but a fascist. I’ve had a couple of my books banned because of people like that, so I think they do need to be called out and fought against, not given in to. Your points are clear, concise and well-taken. Thank you for making them.

  15. Hi Josiah (I love that name more than Sean…some how it conveys “nobility” of character!…;-)…) No wonder you went to do a Philosophy degree! Apart your great porn job that keeps giving me great joy every time I see it, your concise, clairvoyant and bold perspective of things just makes nothing but sense…and I really I’m glad that all of that you said just fitted in what has become your lifestyle…
    I always knew from an early age what I was…and never tried to hide it from myself or the rest of the world…and fortunately, in a way, I never had such an odd sorrounding environment for my “coming out of the closet” life…But there’s one thing that always bothered me in “gay life”: promiscuity…not in a religious or self-limited sex self-expression sense, but as an intrinsically sensitive trait of mine (it’s hard for me to share myself with someone I know it will be only a one night stand…or only a brief period)!…I’m definitely an old fashioned romantic guy!…
    How would you yourself deal with that?!
    Thank you! :-) ;-)

  16. I love it papa: “….. They concede to the moral fascists of hetero mainstream, unable to accept the fact that we truly are different….” Not only are you gorgeous but also fucking brilliant…. when do I meat you????

  17. Sometimes, I wonder if you’re intellectualism of the subject is a coping mechanism which enables you to perceive that you have “control” over your road trip (which now is a new home) into pornography and escorting? Deep down, you battle with your own sort of shamming – cognitive dissonance?

      1. Whateva Hota! I’ve seen some of your and you’re gramma and your no one to write about it. Don’t make me dis? I guess that’s it is what it is. A queenly dis. to distract from what I asserted. So I’m relegated to “oh your so hot dude.”

        1. Noel, please point out an instance where I used “your” for “you’re”, because I do know the difference, unlike so many bitches…

          And I must admit, I’m shocked it took you this long to come up with YOUR response. YOU’RE really something…

        2. Okay, first off, get a grip, bitch. Second off, don’t diss my grammar when yours is so pathetic. Third off, try and make some sense when you’re making a comment. It would be very helpful.

          BTW, I’m from San Antonio — and we spell it “jota,” puta pendeja.

  18. I definitely agree that gay pornography plays a larger role in many gay men’s lives than merely a tool to get off. A lot of us grew up in a time when you couldn’t see gay men displaying affection for one another. And there was no mention of gay sex in sex ed class. I’m not implying that porn should be an educational tool, but I’m sure you understand what I’m saying. Our sexuality was ignored and in gay porn, we saw a world where men felt the same feelings we did. It reassured us that we weren’t alone. And I’d like to extend my personal thanks to you Josiah/Sean for contributing to it!

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